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When Im With You

I dont know who to trust and intention is building inside to desire .
Everything that you say to me takes me one step closer to the edge and im about to break.
Dont just make promise and intentionally breaks them one by one.
It hurts la BODOH .

A Shot In The Dark

To Boddah,

All is well for me but many of my friends surrounding me are in deep pain.
Trying to be there for them is difficult because of the way things really changed.
To help someone i have to help myself first. And im not .
I may act normal and all but deep inside,I still miss her and I cant change the fact.
Every five minute i would stop and ask myself whatever happen to her?
But Thank god the pain is not as it was before. Things changed you know?
People also changed.By people i mean her.
To miss someone that changed is kinda hard to feel to me.
I've also changed and im proud of the changes.
Like i said, I keep telling myself that im okay but the awful truth is im not.
I've learn to posses someone will not give you satisfaction.
Satisfaction wont give you happiness like in the movies.
Earning what you earn from the very beginning is whats best.
So here i go living my life like a normal adolescence would .
Other than that . Its a mess . heeee

Just Give Me Myself Back And Dont Stay

So today is Hari Raya People!
Kinda bored one I think. we didn't went back to 'Kampung' this year.
Instead,We had our raya in kl.Ok la not bad because Mak Yang is joining us.
I met my cousin who i haven't met for like 8 months and a lot of catching up were done.
I slept in the afternoon and went out with my brother in the evening.Saifudin was at the hospital because of some lung sickness.Okay, quit smoking mirin.Anyway , we visited him and he looks fine if he didn't cough every 5 seconds! Pity him though because i don't wanna ends like him.
Anyhow , after the hospital we went to 'Mamak' and have the usual 'Teh O Ice' there. And then we went to Selayang Mall to play Snooker. I was matched with Apit and it ended up i got beaten.Humiliatingly. Anyhow , i was a good day thanks to the raya-ing money! Hoo yeahh . If not , i say it was a pretty decent day :)

Stupify

Dear special readers.
I cant say this infront of you sebab nk 'Jaga Hati' dan sebagainya.
-__-'

Soo, i just let it out here okay?
Fyi, i just wanna say that you're making yourself look STUPID
I don't mean the common stupid.
Im talking about the real one yeah know?

Sapa yang terasa tuh blog ni memang untuk korang.
Lelaki dan perempuan sekalian ,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
&
Aku Tak BATAK Dengan Kemaafan Korang :)

Wassup Losers

Cakap belakang lagi ka pukimak ?
Eh , korang ni pengecut ah . Meh sini talk face to face.

Tetiba lak moody.
Anyway , im simply updating this blog.
Nothing to say because im afraid to let my personal stuff here.

Soo , cerita2 yang korang da tau je la yee . hahaha

Cam ni cita dia .

The End

Whats Mine Is Trash

So , last night i had a sleepover at Syafiq's and i swore that the weirdest thing happen to me.
While i was sleeping , get this i heard somebody said 'She Is Not Yours Mirin'.
Sumpah demi Allah ada orang cakap tapi taktau sape larr .

Anyway , tht statement made me realise how i've been over this past 6 months.
And from now on , i wont bother you anymore k ?

Tapi still tak puas hati tak tau sapa yang cakap . Who ever he is . Im sure he's briliant :)

Selamat Berbuka Puasa

Yee la , aku tunggu da 2 jam da . tinggal lagi 20 minit.
Woah , rasa sakit gila nak tunggu . hahaha :)

Btw , da makan kenyang2 and pergi teraweh isap rokok.
Yay !

Luck Turns Bad

Ok first of all aku nak bgtau korang yang harini memang malang gila oh.
Firstly , yang korang patut tahu aku tak pegi sekolah. Aku serong pergi Pavilion.
Aku taknak pergi tapi membe aku paksa doh . Kesian tak?

Durjana bermula , sampai je pavayy kitorang kena tahan polis. Bayangkan lah sway nye.
Diorang question macam2 woah . Ada sampai masing-masing da terdiam.
Diorang mintak IC . Kitorang bagi and dia amik IC Number kitorang .

Durjana kedua , Syahir takut nak berhadapan ngan polis tu lagi.
So kitorang ikut jalan jauh pegi KLCC.
As we were walking , kaki aku terlanggar batu tajam nak mampus.
Aku taktau la kalau ada orang memang plan nak kenakan aku ke ape kan .
So lukalahh kaki aku.

Durjana ketiga , Kitorang tahan teksi daripada KLCC.
Dapat Pakcik teksi sewel lak . Dia buat lawak adui aku tak paham.
Cam ni lawak dia , 'naik basikal macam beruk, beruk dia panggil'
pastuh dia gelak terbahak2 . Adui aku pun gelak la sedekah sikit en ?
Kesian punya pasal :D

Durjan keempat , semalam aku janji ngan Fahirah nak lepak ngn dia.
The thing is , after penat baru balik semua . Aku tertidooo . wahahah
Kesian Fahirah kena stand up . Sorry tau ! I'll make it up to you :)

Kambing-Like

So, here goes my day.
Nothing special actually . Ak tk pegi skolah !

Yayy me! :P

Today bgun2 da pukul 1114 . Shit mak suh call . Lupa Lupa . sorry mama , bila mau balik?
bgun2 pegi selayang mall. Ammar ajak lepak . Pergi isap rokok ,tengok perempuan and buat benda biasa.
Shit da rasa cam rutin harian da :)

Tengah2 lepak. Syafiq wolverine call. Ckp dia da ontheway. So kitorang tunggu dia kat entrance.
Btw, ak ngn Ammar tong2 beli rokok LUFFMAN. haha ekonomi masing2 sengket gila skrang.
So lepak2 then syafiq dtg . After a whila si Akmal lak dtg ngn muka 24 jam blur dia.
And after him, Syami lak dtg ngn muka 24 jam steam dia. hahaha jgn marah anak mail :)

Btw , Syafiq ada ckp something pasal dak2 bbs . Diorang ada sebut smething psl Thara.
Ak dengar cam bengang gak doh . Thara tu kan membe . Ak da la nk jaga nama dia.
Jgn tersebar sudaa. Hadoii masalahh .

Anyway , sok nk klua kl. Tapi duit kosong doh ! Nk mintak ayah harapan. Mama tkde rumah lak.
Harap2 dia balik esok . Boleh Pau :)

Apabila Terhampa

Yaw, sakit doh hati aku kau buat
Aku percaya kat kau and kau campak aku macam kau buat aku dulu.
Banyak sakit doh, aku da tak tahan la mcm ni.
Semua orang satu per sau hampakan aku.
Korang pikir la sapa korang yeee

Asshole In The Making

Good god i wanna share a story of a boy.
A boy i once trust and love.
Goes the name by *somethingSOMETHING*.
You've changed in a way that i cant respect you anymore my friend.
I mean, What the hell happen to you?
Dulu aku siap backup kau kalau ada orang buat cerita psl kau suma.
Now, Im beginning to think tht those stories were true.

Just a few days ago , somebody complaint to me about your behaviour.
About wht you've done to that person.
Honestly dude, Wht the FUCK is wrong with you?
You make me sick to my stomach.
Kalau kau ada kat depan aku ni aku rasa kau da makan kaki aku kot.

One thing that i hate the most is a person yang tak renti nk respect orang.
Weh bodoh, orang lain pun manusia gak cam kau.
And orang lain pun ada MARUAH.
I dont think you've ever heard of such thing because of your selfish-ness.

Tolong lah berhenti buat perangai k?

Minggu Durjana

Weh minggu ni najihah btul doh.
First time perhimpunan on monday,Cikgu nk potong rambut aku.
Aku lari dari sekolah dan balik.Taktau la mcm mana.
KANTOI.

Blik2 kena maki ngn parents.
So esok nya aku terpaksa serong sebab rambut aku belum dipotong.
Then Serong tuh pon kantoi gak.
Apa cilaka sangat ni doh?

Esok harinya. Kwn2 kuh isap rokok kat dlm tandas Sekolah.
Tu pon kantoi gak and nama aku sekali dipetiknya.
Mak aiii. Sumpah sakit hati doh. haha

A Day In The Slut's World

Wahai BOHSIA sekalian,
You guys think tht kitorang tak tau ke whts going on? Weh , Kitorang lgsung tk batak la nk lepak ngn korang. We are not tht low as you.Kau nk tunjuk muka kau kat kitorang apehal? Dgn laki2 rempit+topman kau aku sdikit tak takut la anjing. Igt aku ni miskin sangat ke doh? Bapak aku boleh beli badan korang sumaa skali la. Murah je en? Aku bukan nk ckp ape la en , kau nk ckp membe aku rempit ke apa. Kau pegi amik cermin thn go reflect yourself first k. You think you so HOT la kan? Aku tgok nk maki laa anjing2 cam korang.Wht the hell? Kwn aku nk belanja aku its up to her la. Kau sapa nk marah2? Fuck you laa ;)

Jealous-Sea

Its a pain that i been through every single day.
I'm jealous of the people around me who's been amused by life every single day.
Im jealous of the people who know they still have hope.
Im also jealous of the people who can feel such thing as love.

Like my mother said, There will always be somebody above you.
No matter hard you study or being a person there will always be somebody above you.
At first, I thought it was god,then i became to wonder.
Since when did she ever became religious?
Tht is SO unlike my mother.

Now i knew tht wht she meant by somebody above you was actually your boss.
Lesson learnt , Never disrespect your teachers.

FUCK

Confess

Love me when you're right , Love me when you're wrong .

BUTO LA KORANG!

To The World Of The Dead

In the moment we are lost we need to carry on.
Taking it from the inside and tearing apart from the inside out.
Speaking in volumes and with open arm we stand before the dawn.

There is nothing as empty as waiting to die.
We spent our lives wasting as time eats us alive.

Lord, give me the strengh to return the breath you've stolen.
Give me the means to resist the heart i've broken again.
Took me away from the dark road tht is lit with regret.

The sun seems to have been rising ever since i can recall.
Its branding a sense of permanence to this lying world.

We are being masochistic to think that this life would be remembered.
In time , We all fine an end.

HAHAHA The Power Of Laughing Gas

THE MORNING BEFORE

It all started back on Wednesday recess time where i met Pyka to ask if she got any news from HER.She said tkde.A bit disappointed but okay laa en.Then Yo ajak serong esok dengan Pyka,Ajua and Eika.
He said they would be bringing 'CHICKS' (according to Syahir).Then diorang suma start la kelam kabut nk ikut.Aku pon terpaksa ikut diorang sebab tkde hala tuju gak and malas gak nk g school esok. haha

THE EVENING

Balik dari tusyen jee terus bergadoh ngn Mama.Sumpah cam kimak.My Mum,Dad and my Bro team-up lwn aku sorang.Memang la aku kalah wei.The fight goes on until one point my dad took a knife and threaten to fucking stab me.I was like WTF?Org tua ni memang da tkde akal da dohh. I ran to my room and go to sleep.AT 8 ;p

THE MORNING AFTER

The big day.Bgun2 tgok ada 21 text!haha ramai doh call nak planning en?
Mampus ah aku terus pegi Selayang Mall and wait for everybody there.Everybody arrived and we went to Kepong Sentral according to plan.

OFF TO MIDVALLEY

Wahh,bes doh ini time.We bought two bottle of laughing gas and spray to our nostril all the time.
I was so fucking high till i dont even remember what i said and do half of the time.Syafiq said 'MIRIN LALOK' kimakk jee.haha after Midvalley we went to One Utama but not all of us followed.
Only me,Syhir,Syafiq,Ammar and Wan went to OU because i wanted to see my teddy bear YUNUS :)
Lepak sekejap and i went to tusyen.So fucking sad this day tp best! haha :D

To M

Lord i beg you to hear me out.
I may not have been your favourite followers but im begging you to ease off this pain that im facing.
Each day i feel like a bullet just shot me and i cant help but to let it hit me.

M , I love you. I really do.I cant live without you but i gotta do wht is best even if i had to suffer.
I miss your frogish voice.I really do syg.I'll do anything just to hear your voice again.
But,i gotta do what is best for you.Hope you find somebody tht can make you happy unlike me.
Its so hard to let go of you.Lord only knows i tried so many different ways but failed.
Im gonna keep trying k? Hope you are happy.Ily :(

Deception In The Hills Of Liosin

To Boddah

God knows how the world works around me in deception and words that comes out of a liar's tongue.
Friends to comfort,lovers to love and a family built to trust is just another of god's plans to hurt us all through lies that are sometimes useful and also oh so hurtful .

The victim that are predicted will always be the victim by the predator that you would never predict causing pain which is a feeling you search all your life for because that's the feeling when you know you are challenged in this world that could make yourselves the survivor amongst the victim.

Laughter and enjoyment are the things you look for when you simply running away from the things you know you about to phase.I myself explored pain because i cannot get enough of it which explains my foolish doings that would have been done by other men who wanted to challenged life itself.

Trust and love are just an excuse made by men to get a women into bed. We all know that god created men to lead a community that he posses and to revolutionise human being by continuing the human race.Such theories that I've used are told to me by my mother when i was just a couple of mud's who was just an innocent boy discovering a man's responsibility that was given by god itself.

Its the bond between two human being are the ones that lead to such thing call love. This bond can never be exist if one are holding back and not letting the others in. This disposable items are the ones that we called TRUST.